Lu Turned 2 // A Life Update
I’ve taken some time off social media to reflect on my life and live unapologetically in the moment. Social media is no inherently bad thing, I’ve just been going through a deeper transformation than I have ever before and I needed to step away from the noise, step away from being seen by others so I could see myself. I’ve been getting to know my neighbors; helping the old woman across the street remove a dead bird from her sidewalk because it upset her and seeing the bird as a symbol of my own inner death into a whole new world. Synchronicities have been endless lately, I feel more and more aligned with my path at every passing day, yet I remain very still in the middle of it all, surrendering to the process and letting the winds of the goddess carry me to a new place.
I’ve been taking beautiful photos of our life and not just because I want to post them to my social media, but because I wanted to keep the memories for myself and my daughter to look back on as times change. I’m not saying there is anything wrong with running a mama blog with lovely style and daily uploads, I was beginning to feel pressured to create daily ‘content’ in order to stay connected and I became entangled with the consciousness of mama instagrammers. It was time for me to gain back my autonomy. I started this blog because I knew my story was going to be able to help others, because I had seen some of the darkest days and I knew I would get somewhere extraordinary, I could feel it in the depths of my soul although my circumstances did nothing to reflect it. It was my calling; to share my journey and help others. But I became lost in how to express that journey and stepping away has given me the clarity I called for. I’ve always been an impulsive person, Aries over here, and I’ve recently shifted to making decisions based on a feeling of inner peace and not because I felt I had to, right away. I let things sit with me, see how they feel in my energetics and move towards a decision with a deep inner peace. I know I will return to instagram, but it is not yet time.
I’m preparing for something big, a new shift, a change of pace and I just have this incredible urge to get to work. To start preparing for… I don’t quite know what yet, but I do know it’s coming. I can feel it in my field, or the astral realms, or far out into space I’m not sure, but I can feel something on to horizon and I just have this undoubtable trust in it all. I can feel this new life switch coming within each present moment, as a feeling that I am somewhere else in my life but I just haven’t quite got there yet. I will know what steps I need to take as I need to take them, and I’m learning to work directly with my energetic body to move through blocks set in place to help me prepare for the leap into the unknown.
I am grateful for this journey, I would’t have changed a single moment, not even the months of time I spent begging for answers, overthinking what I was going to do next, because it has all brought me here. And this moment is always quite beautiful. Peace out for now.
PS Lu’s curls have gotten out of this world! She waters her garden every day and we often watch the bees pollinating the flowers and have conversations with the monarchs. Sometimes we wear cloth diapers, sometimes we don’t. We take morning walks collecting treasures that we sketch in her art book on the deck. She likes to carry orangutan in her backpack and take leaves for rides on her bike. She builds houses for her animals using sand and blocks and always makes sure each one is fed and has fresh water. Our adventures have been endless, never planned and always present. xoxo