It was a cold but sunny day and I was cuddled up under the covers with Luna as she slept for her afternoon nap. I was watching the sunlight make rainbows in her hair and admiring the gleaming yellow aura haloing around her body. I put my hand up in the air with the backdrop of the white ceiling and started to admire my own aura glow. I’ve always been able to see them but I put it off as a trick of the eye, or sunlight, or the color someone was wearing. It wasn’t until a few years ago when I started doing chakra work, particularly third eye, that I could no longer deny what I was seeing. I had been recently practicing viewing plant auras and during the early hours of my labor with Luna I found great comfort in watching the auras of the large trees humming in our backyard.
As I laid there watching the glimmer between my fingers I felt myself letting go. Then suddenly the most brilliant glow illuminated from the palm of my hand. I let out a breath and smiled as the light danced around me, I had never seen anything like it and as tears streamed down my face I fluttered my hand plying with the dancing light. I felt my soul fill up my body and everything made sense to me; I am blue. I put my hand down and laid there in awe cuddled up with my baby.
Once she woke I ran out to my studio and grabbed my watercolors and paper, I just had to paint what I saw. I tried sheet after sheet to get it right but kept coming up short. It wasn’t until the next day I saw my brushes and paper sitting out on the floor, music was playing and Luna was laying on her quilt playing with her rainbow ball. I was singing to her and felt myself being free with the paintbrush and it came to me. My self portrait.