Discovering Conscious Parenting Through Discovering Myself
It has been a month since I’ve written a blog post and I feel like a completely different person already, and continuing to grow still. When I started this journey I knew it would lead to something magical, because this time is different, this time I have one thing so much more important than my self doubts and fears; I have Luna. My desire to raise her consciously, without the constraints and societal limitations most of us were raised with, has forced me to break out of my own programming and peel back layer after layer of bullshit to uncover my own authentic self, so I’m able to allow her to discover hers.
Going on a spiritual journey so far for me has not been one of bliss and joy, it has been one of struggle and pain as the universe delivers what I’ve been praying for; spiritual enlightenment through self discovery. Its painful to really look into yourself, to see the deep fears, resentment, and unhealed parts of yourself carried around as insecurities, frustrations, and doubt. I’ve buried my true self so deep I found myself feeling lost and confused far to often. I want to find my purpose in this life and raise Luna to discover her own without unnecessary influence. She knows why she's here in this lifetime, I just have to be there for her reminding her to listen to her own voice above all else.
But how can I teach her to listen to her inner self when I’ve ignored my own for so long? Commence the soul work, the un-programming, the constant tests from the universe to see if I’m serious this time, to see if I will push through the hard part and make it to the other side where it might not always be easy but living in my truth will make everything worth it. With each insight my life becomes clearer, my authentic self has started to emerge and I find my inner voice becoming louder and more powerful.
So as I push through each lesson, I want to share my struggles and outcome. I’ve done so much reading and study on my own but its always different when you see someone working through their trials; the insights I find may inspire someone else and thats why I’m writing and continue to share our journey.